Tuesday, 21 April 2009

Death to the Diva!

Killing the alter-ego.

The other day I was talking to a friend and we got into a lil' friendly debate. She had her own opinion about a certain matter and I had my own and we kept going back and forth and she ended up accusing me of being stubborn diva (which I reject IJN lol) , this wasn't the first time I have been called stubborn and recently I have been asking God to purge me of the things in me that will hold me down.
so it got me thinking: what is the true definition of stubbornness? I have always been very firm in my personal moral codes and generally if I am in the wrong in any matter I am the first to admit it and apologise for it . But it got me thinking; Do people misconstrue a strong character for a stubborn one? shouldn't we be allowed to form our own opinions and stick with them without being accused of being stubborn? I really felt that if you had an opinion that there is nothing wrong with standing up for what you believe, but there are times when one can take it too far. I know I'm guilty of it. I know I have a tendency to be stuck on something that isn't that important all in the name of making a point. for example when a driver cuts you off or takes your spot on the roads, usually that was enough to spoil my day at times and I realise the devil will use what he can to destroy my day. the Bible tells us in Psalm 118: 24 that "This is the day the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it" we sing it all the time but there is power in those words. The day belongs to God but he blesses us with it and we decided what to do with the day, if we allow issues to control our day then we cannot rejoice and be glad.
I had therefore taken it upon myself to ignore those situations that would get in my way and in doing so I allowed the enemy to lie to me once again. to the point when I would not allow anything to affect me as long as I hold on to my precious opinions and points! to the extent that the point became more important than the people.
Its been a real eye-opener for me because I did not realise how "set " I was in my ways I had a look at the Merriam-Webster dictionary and it defines stubbornness as "unreasonably or perversely unyielding" it also defines stubbornness as "one who is difficult to handle, manage or treat".
I was so scared when I saw that, I thought "Goodness! am I really that bad" I know at times I have a tendency to be opinionated and there's nothing wrong with being a strong character, God made us all different but there has to be room for other people, I realised ENOUGH WITH THE DRAMA! I don't have anything to prove because God has blessed me in so many ways. holding on to trivial points is just plain petty! I am bigger than that! So what if the driver cut me off! I should be thankful to God that he didn't crash into me!
I realised that I was indirectly punishing people who reminded me of certain people from my past that had hurt me, the "IT" crew at high school, the "teachers" /" fathers", "evil drivers on the road while I was still learning" - I realise I have nothing to prove anymore.
When Jesus came into my life he took all that away. My life in him is a zillion times better. I have HIM so I don't need to fight anymore. He fights for me and I am on the winning side!
So yes, stubbornness was a part of me but now its dead and buried because I am a new creation in Christ Jesus, old things have passed away and new things have begun (2 Corinthians 5:17). If we hold on to our pass fights we can never enjoy and embrace our new victories.

So Praise God and death to all your inner evil divas!
God bless ya!

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